Thursday, November 27, 2014

A train of thought on purpose

What is purpose? I go on to propose that purpose is some state of being which a man wants to achieve. It might be world
dominion,excellence,power,love or even hate. He goes through time and every action and every thought is merely a means to attain that state.With
purpose comes Will and with Will action.Purpose is that which leaves you sleepless and wakes you up from your dreams of it. Purpose provides the Will
to carry on into the night while others tend to their bleeding feet. It is purpose that dictates a man to spend sleepless nights and yet be grateful
for them. It is the fire that burns bright despite the absence of fuel. It is that which every man wants to have and very few do. It is the heart of
life and only when that heart is beating does life begin.Purpose does not need justification once set in the mind of a man. It is the engine that
fuels itself. It is a waterfall that leads to the glacier where it came from. Once known to a man, it is eternal and all consuming.From being
purpose-less to having purpose is a journey which has broken many a spirit. Fortunate are those who have purpose for it is a broken man without one.

What if there is no purpose?What if there is?Whithout purpose a man is a broken spirit.The very nature of free will and intelligence begs of purpose.
Without purpose we have nothing to excercise the powers of intellect on. Without purpose we are the mosquitoe in a storm. We can fly,yes, but it does
not matter if we do.The spirit does not give us power enough to go against the storm if we so choose.With purpose however we are no longer a
mosquitoe in a storm; we are boulders in a river. We are in the river,yes, but we may choose to change it's course.Purpose is what defines us as
people. A purposeless man is no different from an animal, a single bacterial cell.When asked that is intelligence; i cannot answer. You see a single
cell is alive, but it's life can be quantified into reactions. An animal then. But is an animal not made of cells?And humans are nothing more than
animals in the eyes of staunch science. How then do we define intelligence?

Intelligence is the ability to define your own purpose. Ability mind you. This does not dictate that you must necessarily do so. You must be the
creator of action and not simply wait to react to something.A cell has a predefined purpose which is to survive and pass on the knowledge it gathers
in it's lifetime. The method of passing on differs from the level of life to organism complexity however this default purpose,if you will, remains.
When a lifeform begins to have the ability to ignore this purpose and work towards something else I would begin to call it intelligent behaviour. If
we analyse the current world with this in mind sudden changes in perception begin to occur. Institures of learning which were supposed to help us
find purpose and help us along that way suddenly become nothing more than places of training in a set of methods. Institutes of work have now become
employment centers.You family becomes just blood relations.That is what the absence of purpose does.

If purpose is so important in life, how does one go about acquiring it?Unlike popular perception purpose does not come from fate.Intelligence makes
it so that we must choose our own purpose. Yes hardships do help in deciding but the final decision is ours.With the improvement in quality of life
we have taken away hardship. The growing pains of a human psyche in my opinion has ben diminished to such an extent that the human is no longer
unique. Their memories are their own but their behaviours are not. They are standard run of the mill mass communication shaped psyches.One must
choose.The fear of failing is large.For better part of my life I have had the same fear. It has stopped me from becoming what I know I could have.The
fear of failing keeps you from giving it your all.If you allow your purpose to wholly define you.If you allow yourself to become so consumed by it,
immersed in it that without the purpose there is no you,then and only then will you know the joy of life. Of having something to live for. Let not
that fear of failing in your purpose keep you fromm choosing one.Keeping your options open, as they say, is the workst you could possibly do to
yourself. That keeps you from gaining purpose and thus your stringth of will that could be a hundred times more than what it is now.Close that door.
Refuse to go anywhere but where your purpose takes you.Turn down everything else. Breathe in the scent of hardwork and Will.Hear your heart beating
just to accomplish that one thing.With every action of yours know that you are closer.Then you shall not exist but live.Time shall fall away and
hunger shall not bother you.Sleep will not come easy unless dictated by the physical needs of our body. You will wake from the beautiful dreams of
that one purpose by the Will that burns inside you. But first you must make that choice. It is a big choice. Choose well.

Choose well. Ask a thousand questions before it.Raise a million doubts before it.Shake the choice to it's core.After making that choice however. Give
yourself to it and question it not. Let it guide you, show you places not seen. Soon enough the world shall seem different as you look through eyes
moist with the love for that one purpose.I say to you my friend.Purpose is human.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

The voice of JARVIS

Finished reading up material on TTS engines. This is awesome stuff. I tried to find tried and tested things on python for TTS but came up with bindings that use the windows interface of other complicated stuff.

Ive decided to give JARVIS my own voice. Im writing my own TTS. Of course it will be buggy but my aim is to write it as a completely platform independent piece of code. It might take some time though. University examinations are here and I need to study for those.

Will get back on this. See you after the examinations. Most probably 10 Dec. If however Im in the mood and have some free time I will update on JARVIS.

Monday, November 17, 2014

JARVIS has cells

Al right folks. Finally wrote a piece of Artificaial Neural Network for Jarvis.

Jarvis officially has the brain cell.
Of course that is not the end of it nor is it the complete building block collection. However I am pleased to announce that JARVIS can finally generalize stuff. Also He has ears and a vocal box. Just kidding. He just has a sound class to communicate with the speaker and mic.

No sense is made of the sound yet however. Inputs and outputs are working fine. I need to figure out a model for the sound system. Just read about something called Language deaf. I think Ive experienced it a bit. I went to Thailand a few years back as a student. The hotel we stayed at had a manager who also spoke hindi. He asked me my name in hindi(my mother tongue) and i told him i did not speak Thai. I was looking for thai in the words he spoke. I think that is what is called being language deaf.

If the language deaf thing is correct( I have to read up on that. Dont even know if that is what it is called.) it means that our brain is constantly hearing sounds but is actually comparing them to models in our mind to figure out what they sound like. So in fact it is a massively parallel process as we have a lot of sounds that we can recognize on an average. I will work on that later.

Meanwhile im working on sight and text via keyboard too. Most probably I will reorganize the directory structure based on the brain(Need to read that too.)

Thats all for the update.
In case you are looking to help. Here is the git repo
Also the references for neural networks that i used to build the network for jarvis:

Saturday, November 8, 2014

Red tape

Suddenly my life is being run by red tape. I managed to finally see something. The joker was right. If u do something for free you lose your value. I was building the college website for free. Currently the setup is a simple html file serving business with a windows server. Completely open to a mimt attack. The site structure is a mess. Out of pity and a sense of belonging I made a django based website for them.

Not a very polished job but still lightyears ahead of the current setup. This is what i call constructive competition. Now the administration who updates the site wants me to plug this into frontpage2003. WTF!
Instant boilover. They dont want it. So i deleted the s=repo on the spot from my local computer. Of course i kept it on github so that i dont lose that work in case they come back to their senses.

However i now have a good mind to do some destructive competition. I wont but the administration deserves some.

Secondly for some reason the police verification of my passport failed. They say the same person was not presented upon verification as who applied for passport. WTF the policeman really did it.
We are forever lost and found in this world of laws. Laws of man ,made by man to govern man.

Red tape.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Youth. Lost.

Last night as i lay down to sleep, like most of the times I began to dream. A dream of thought. Where one leads to another and the thread of thought stretches on.

I thought of myself. I wonder if everyone is as lost as I am. We have no purpose. This clamour over being an all rounder. The average kid being able to hold her own in any field. It was good back in the days before industrial revolution. A child followed the family business. There was purpose. Now there is none. You see the illusion of free will is that from a very youg age we a re allowed to do anything.

Its like we are drowning at sea. There are a thousand boats that can save us but we have to swim to them. The thing is that only when we reach the boat do we see it's holes. In the hope of finding a boat with minimum holes we have all become boat hoppers. This is what free will does. This is what choice does. In all my short life I have come to know that once you are on the boat, stick to it.

This boat hopping behaviour leads to nincompoops in all the boats. Spineless men who leave when the shit hits the fan.This is simply youth lost. Freedom is not choosing something aout of whim and no person stopping you. Freedom is when you choose something while there is resistance to your choice. That is freedom. Freedom comes not from the acceptance of others but rather from the will of our own selves.

Im blabbing again. Maybe I should shop writing this stuff. Or not. Who knows. If I am one in  a million who are lost. Maybe there are a hundred like me. Maybe we all can get to gether and go to the same boat and stay there for better or for worse.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Back from the dead

I was busy with the college website. Back from the dead.
The thing with me is I cannot hold onto something long enough. I guess that is what everyone is like. It takes a lot of will to keep doing something.

Newfound respect from my father who has been doing the same thing for the last 20 years. Thats will. Getting up everyday and going to office even when he knows nothing new is going to happen.

These last days I saw something. Placements are going on in college. Its a big deal. You see the course Im doing has only a simple science gradation degree. Getting placed is a big thing here. The funny part is how people with amazing records will clamour for jobs even when they know that they will get better ones. Its like even though you are good; and you know it, you just cannot help that feeling that there are a million just like you.

This past semester we were taught physics by Dr. Jacob Cherian. The Physics honours students say hes a douchebag. Does nothing but tell stories and insult people in class. I violently disagree. He tells stories so that things stick in our heads. You are more likely to remember the laws of motion if they happened to your teacher intead of 'a point object'. Also the insulting is what i like. It shows the holes in our ideas and what the 'EDUCATION' system has done to us. In my opinion hes the one teacher who knows teaching is not about holding our hand and leading us. Its about pointing the way and smiling as we get bloodied.

More on this later. I think I finally named this blog correctly. Have no purpose.